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​Where the hell have you been!

Hello beautiful, and thank you so so much for tuning into this episode of the explant secrets podcast. This episode is a little different because I know I kind of disappeared there for while and you absolutely deserve to know why.

I got depressed...

If you’ve been following my personal story you might know that in October I had the incredible opportunity to make my red dot debut and speak about Breast Implant Illness for TEDxWoodinville. This was a MASSIVE personal win for me, but it was also SO much more than that…

It was the result of two years worth of hard healing and hard work. This is not an easy story to share and not because I’m not willing, but because getting on respectable stages like TEDx to speak about Breast Implant Illness when so many ridiculous doctors are still trying to say its not real, it felt damn near impossible. But I did it, I did it for me, I did it for my family who had to watch me suffer through this illness, and most importantly I did it for you. I did it because you deserve to see that you can come back from this illness. You deserve to know that I have 18 links attached to to my TEDx talk with undeniable evidence that breast implants are wildly unstable and incredibly dangerous. I did it because every woman who has ever been or is being harmed RIGHT NOW by breast implants deserves to have a voice and we deserve our voices to be heard on one of the most respected stages in the world.

So why was I so depressed that I disappeared for a while…

Because I poured years of my life and all of my energy while trying to heal from this illness into getting our message on the TEDx stage and I did it, and then all of the footage was lost.

Im not even kidding… my talk just disappeared.

Now right about now you are probably thinking, how the hell does that even happen? Why didn’t you have your own recording of it? Where’s the backup footage? What can be done?

So the thing about TEDx is they are extremely picky about how content makes it to their platform. Speakers, like myself, and the 20 others who walked the TEDxWoodinville stage last October had to sign legal documents stating that we would not photograph, film, or in any way record ANY part of our talks. All recording was required to be done by our professional videographer and no copies where to be distributed to speakers or even event staff.

How it was suppose to work was the video team would record the talks, complete the editing, provide the edited talks to our incredible TEDx organizer Tanja Diamond, at which point if Tanja approved the edited videos she would then upload it to TEDx.

Then the recorded talk goes through another approval process to ensure the content and quality is something TEDx wants to put their name on, and when thats done the talk gets uploaded to the TEDx YouTube channel. That and the TEDx or TED website are the only places that talk is allowed to be posted. It can be shared from those sites but it can NOT live anywhere else.

So I had exactly NO rights to any of my footage from the beginning. Which is fine, thats the TEDx process and I respect that and respect THEM.

The problem is our professional video team, gave all of the footage to one person to edit. NO backups, no copies, just all the footage for 20 incredible TEDx speakers handed over, to one person. And then that one person had what I can only assume was a metal breakdown or personal crisis because they missed all of their deadlines to turn in the edited talks and when the owner of the video company requested they just turn the footage over he was met with exactly no response.

She wouldn’t answer calls, wouldn’t answer text’s nothing…

Crickets.

Since then she finally agreed to upload the footage to a shared drive but the footage was corrupted in the upload process and can’t be used.

So now after weeks of back and fourth I’ve been told the owner was able to finally secure the original footage and I thought things were back on track but now I’ve learned my TEDx organizers license for TEDx is expiring and she still has not received the footage so I don’t know if two years worth of work has gone up in smoke or not and if I’m being completely honest, even talking about this now makes me feel like I’m going to throw up.

So if I’m being honest, which you know I am, as I sat here reflecting on the last two years a part of me really though to myself you know what…

“Maybe I’m done…”

“Maybe I’m done fighting.”

“Maybe there’s enough others out there fighting to spread the word about breast implant Illness.

Maybe, the community doesn’t need me.

But then… I remembered you. YOU. The ones who listen to Explant Secrets Podcast and have found the courage to choose you and to choose to put your health first above anything else.

So girl if you can have the courage to do that I can have the courage to keep going… keep telling OUR STORY and keep educating women about the dangers of breast implants.

So thank you for listening to this podcast… and if you are getting anything out of this show anything at all, please share it. Like it, subscribe, comment, let me know it’s making a difference for you because your feed back is more meaningful to me than I feel like I can put into words right now and I could really use some encouragement to keep going.

Don’t worry the next episode will back on track with the normal horrors and healing you’ve come to trust me to share.

I love you. Talk to you soon!

Oh and just incase any of the doctors willing keep their mouth shut about BII for the sake of their own pocket books or leaders of the corporations pouring billions into marketing that preys on women and tell us us we are are not good enough if any of you happen to be listening… just real quick…

Where the hell have you been!

Hello beautiful, and thank you so so much for tuning into this episode of the explant secrets podcast. This episode is a little different because I know I kind of disappeared there for while and you absolutely deserve to know why.

I got depressed.

If you’ve been following my personal story you might know that in October I had the incredible opportunity to make my red dot debut and speak about Breast Implant Illness for TEDxWoodinville. This was a MASSIVE personal win for me, but it was also SO much more than that…

It was the result of two years worth of hard healing and hard work. This is not an easy story to share and not becasue I’m not willing, but because getting on respectable stages like TEDx to speak about Breast Implant Illness when so many rediculous doctors are still trying to say its not real, it felt damn near impossilbe. But I did it, I did it for me, I did it for my family who had to watch me suffer through this illness, and most importnatly I did it for you. I did it because you deserve to see that you can come back from this illness. You deserve to know that I have 18 links attached to to my TEDx talk with undeniable evidence that breast implants are wildly unstable and incredibly dangerous. I did it because every woman who has ever been or is being harmed RIGHT NOW by breast implants deserves to have a voice and we deserve our voices to be heard on one of the most respected stages in the world.

So why was I so depressed that I disapeared for a while…

Becasue I poored years of my life and all of my energy while trying to heal from this illness into getting our message on the TEDx stage and I did it, and then all of the footage was lost.

Im not even kidding… my talk just disappeared.

Now right about now you are probably thinking, how the hell does that even happen? Why didn’t you have your own recording of it? Where’s the backup footage? What can be done?

So the thing about TEDx is they are extremely picky about how content makes it to their platform. Speakers, like myself, and the 20 others who walked the TEDxWoodinville stage last October had to sign legal documents stating that we would not photograph, film, or in any way record ANY part of our talks. All recording was required to be done by our professional videographer and no copies where to be distributed to speakers or even event staff.

How it was suppose to work was the video team would record the talks, complete the editing, provide the edited talks to our incredible TEDx organizer Tanja Diamond, at which point if Tanja approved the edited videos she would then upload it to TEDx.

Then the recorded talk goes through another approval process to ensure the content and quality is something TEDx wants to put their name on, and when thats done the talk gets uploaded to the TEDx YouTube channel. That and the TEDx or TED website are the only places that talk is allowed to be posted. It can be shared from those sites but it can NOT live anywhere else.

So I had exactly NO rights to any of my footage from the beginning. Which is fne, thats the TEDx process and I respect that and respect THEM.

The problem is our professional video team, gave all of the footage to one person to edit. NO backups, no copies, just all the footage for 20 incredible TEDx speakers handed over, to one person. And then that one person had what I can only assume was a metal breakdown or personal crisis because they missed all of their deadlines to turn in the edited talks and when the owner of the video company requested they just turn the footage over he was met with exactly no response.

She wouldn’t answer calls, wouldn’t answer text’s nothing…

Crickets.

Since then she finally agreed to upload the footage to a shared drive but the footage was corrupted in the upload process and can’t be used.

So now after weeks of back and fourth I’ve been told the owner was able to finally secure the original footage and I thought things were back on track but now I’velearned my TEDx organizers license for TEDx is expiring and she still has not received the footgage so I don’t know if two years worth of work has gone up in smoke or not and if I’m being completely honest, even talking about this now makes me feel like I’m going to throw up.

So if I’m being honest, which you know I am, as I sat here reflecting on the last two years a part of me really though to myself you know what…

“Maybe I’m done…”

“Maybe I’m done fighting.”

“Maybe there’s enough others out there fighting to spread the word about breast implant Illness.

Maybe, the community doesn’t need me.

But then… I remembered you. YOU. The ones who listen to #explantsecretspodcast and have found the courage to choose you and to choose to put your health first above anything else.

So girl if you can have the courage to do that I can have the courage to keep going… keep telling OUR STORY and keep educating women about the dangers of breast implants.

So thank you for listening to this podcast… and if you are getting anything out of this show anything at all, please share it. Like it, subscribe, comment, let me know it’s making a difference for you because your feed back is more meaningful to me than I feel like I can put into words right now and I could really use some encouragement to keep going.

Don’t worry the next episode will back on track with the normal horrors and healing you’ve come to trust me to share.

I love you. Talk to you soon!


Oh and just incase any of the doctors willing keep their mouth shut about BII for the sake of their own pocket books or leaders of the corporations pouring billions into marketing that preys on women and tell us us we are are not good enough if any of you happen to be listening… just real quick…

Special Audio credit goes to the incredibly talented Vivienne Medrano.

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